as Danny wrote: Most important seems to be finding your enjoyment again! Four months of learning breathing in FS definitely isn't a long time...
My first thought is: How to go to revise (or test) the roots? Balance-Streamline-Balance-Streamline...
Did you go through a course step by step? (Terry's 1.0
or the older Perpetual Motion
.) Otherwise give it a try and start with first step...
Is it possible to put a video in here, so someone might find an issue causing your frustration...
And have in mind, three of Terry's mantras:
- Strive for conscious
- If you don't reach your goal today, take it neither good nor bad. It's simply a fact to work with tomorrow. (Not sure, if it's from Terry...)
Hope you'll find enjoyment in every stroke soon!