I've had some horrendous two months, or whatever it's been since my posts. I actually almost stopped swimming altogether due to this. I now moved back to Luleň for the summer, but before that, I didn't swim for two weeks straight because I hated it so much. I really felt I was done with it.
I had good POOL swimming days perhaps twice or three times ever since I left Luleň in March; one was yesterday. But generally speaking, I've been feeling constantly low about my inability to learn this. It also has had a huge carryover onto my everyday mood, my passion, my everyday life. A negative carryover, because I was so all-in with this thing and I couldn't crack it.