About 30 yrs ago with a few friends I crewed a square rigger to the Channel Islands and our first port of call on the trip was Jersey! We dropped anchor a few hundred metres out and rowed ashore. The sun was hot, the sea felt warm, the ship looked close, so I thought I'd swim out. She seemed further than she loooked, but I kept going, shimmying up the anchor rope with a sense of accomplishment. On board though I was quickly cold, despite the sun, and, as my clothes were on the shore, I felt I had no alternative to diving back overboard! The water felt in turns icy then warm, and as I swam a feeling of tiredness grew. I became simply fed up with swimming. It's a hard thing to describe. It wasn't that feeling of wanting to reach the other side. I just felt like stopping swimming. When I finally walked up the beach I realised I had tunnel vision. Children stopped and stared as I lurched like a drunk towards my friends. Not long after we went to get some lunch but as soon as we turned into the shadows of the houses I couldn't go on. I needed sun. The sand was hot and welcoming. I burrowed in, and the next thing I knew, my friends were preparing to return to the ship.
I realised it had been my first taste of hypothermia. It's a problem I have with my OW swimming here too.
My own ability to keep going is a state of mind more than a physical limitation but no less real because of that. My 1km was in open water, along a 110m island shore which, until I charted my progress on a map, I hadn't realised curved so much that it's actually not possible to see more than 25m "ahead". Doing repeated laps along that is something I can do relatively easily, but, starting from the same point, doing much more than one lap across the 105m bay on the other side defeats me still ! The distance is virtually identical but the experience is totally different. My mile was in a pool but, staring across various stretches of open water, it makes no sense!
What did you mean by "to see if I could get a little bit further on my side"?
I'm envious of your three stroke breathing because it enables better balance between sides. Mine settles into a two stroke pattern as distance increases, with my out-breath following immediately my head submerges, in much the same way as I breath when I become tired jogging. In this I never hold my breath. I just time in-breaths to coincide with not being underwater! Three stroke breathing entails much more control of out-breaths though, and that's where I start getting into problems. Any thoughts?
A psychological disorder is: "Any personal construction which is used repeatedly in spite of consistent invalidation."
~ George Kelly
"The water is your friend.....you don't have to fight with water, just share the same spirit as the water, and it will help you move."
~ Aleksandr Popov